I think it's fair to say that I am NOT a faceless blogger, for one how does that work, really? How do you promote your blog, suggest it to your friends or avoid divulging any information that may reveal your identity. I can totally see why someone would want to be anonymous, I know that I have used this blog to lay some old demons to rest. Maybe because if you talk about things that are less than jolly, people find you less than jolly to be around, the problem is, that to move forward sometimes we must go back.
I also know that I was never really going to talk about a lot of the stuff I went through in my life face to face with anyone, it's not me. And while I know that everyone knows that these words are mine, it's ok, because this way I do feel protected, you can judge me but I cannot see you and therefore may never know, sometimes ignorance really is bliss! As for my parents, I don't really think they will ever read this and if they do, well they should know that I am the woman I am now because of the things I went through to be here, I am proud of me so they should be too (ok I secretly hope they do not read this but it's inevitable that at some point they may see it). I am pretty sure my brother has read it, and maybe my sisters, but our family aren't big on the talking, and feel pretty much that what happened in the past stays in the past. While the things I went through as a teenager aren't openly talked about, I no longer feel that they are the elephant in the room, thanks to this blog. For those of us who couldn't open up, who turned to other methods to cope be it drinking, crying, self-harm (that one was mine) or any other form of escape blogging has given us an outlet, I can't believe I am the only to feel like this. And so in an air of absolute honesty here are a few other things you may not have know about me:
I also know that I was never really going to talk about a lot of the stuff I went through in my life face to face with anyone, it's not me. And while I know that everyone knows that these words are mine, it's ok, because this way I do feel protected, you can judge me but I cannot see you and therefore may never know, sometimes ignorance really is bliss! As for my parents, I don't really think they will ever read this and if they do, well they should know that I am the woman I am now because of the things I went through to be here, I am proud of me so they should be too (ok I secretly hope they do not read this but it's inevitable that at some point they may see it). I am pretty sure my brother has read it, and maybe my sisters, but our family aren't big on the talking, and feel pretty much that what happened in the past stays in the past. While the things I went through as a teenager aren't openly talked about, I no longer feel that they are the elephant in the room, thanks to this blog. For those of us who couldn't open up, who turned to other methods to cope be it drinking, crying, self-harm (that one was mine) or any other form of escape blogging has given us an outlet, I can't believe I am the only to feel like this. And so in an air of absolute honesty here are a few other things you may not have know about me:
- I totally LOVE singing and if I had the guts would join a band
- I used to be a bit of a goth, the Korn CD is long go, but I kept a few others
- I cannot skate or roller skate (I just never learnt)
- I really like Britney Spears
- I used to fancy Right Said Fred and the guy from the Crystal Maze
That's enough for now, I don't want to give it all away, you may stop reading! I suppose my point is that for some people this is the perfect anonymous release, to get out things they could or would never say in person, but for me, it's sort of a way of getting the real me out.
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